Wednesday, August 29, 2012

Wednesday, August 22, 2012

Tuesday, May 15, 2012

Mother's Day

This is what I wrote about Mother's Day last year

Again this year, the day itself and the days leading up to it were indeed bittersweet.

I have so much to be thankful for.  Obviously.  My five healthy and happy kids.  Who again showered me with sweet homemade gifts and cards and letters that not only made me real true ugly cry,  but also made me wonder how on earth I got so lucky to have these five wonderful little people love me.  Just me. Because I'm their mom.  They don't see my flaws. They just see love.  They look up to me and trust me.  They love me right back.  Because I am their mom.  

And for that I am so grateful.

Of course this being only the second Mother's Day spent without my mom....this day also brings many different thoughts, feelings, emotions and so many memories of her up to the surface.   Not that they're not always there, I don't think one day has gone by that I don't think about her or talk to her,  but on Mother's Day all these things just seem to run...deeper.  more intense.

I guess looking back at what I wrote last year, I can say this year I felt differently about Mother's Day.  Hopeful sign of progress?  Last year I was so focused on my loss.   I was devistated.  Lost.  Broken.  Angry.  And in many ways I still am all of those things, but I am also so much more.....

This Mother's Day my focus,  my thoughts, were on her.   Her life.  What made her happy.  What qualities made her such an exceptional mother and grandmother.

This year the constant stream of memories were so much more sweet than bitter.  I have so many memories of her, of her funny quirks, her smile, her laughter, her constant desire to be surrounded by her family....

The way she lived her life and even the way she accepted her own dying she taught me so much.  About life, about love, about being a mother.

Again, I am so grateful.

For the time we did have.

For all that I've learned from her life.

Tuesday, May 8, 2012

Two Steps step back.

only it feels like one huge leap back....


all thanks to the wonderful principal and his spectacular ideas on class placement.   (can you feel the sarcasm?)

I have never had the urge to junk punch anyone as much I do when I think of this man.   He still has no idea the impact this has had on my child.

end rant.

Wednesday, April 18, 2012

Tuesday, March 27, 2012

Is anyone still there?

Cuz we're here.

And life is just as crazy as ever.   I miss writing.  I wish I could get back into it.

There's lots to write about.

Like birthdays

And well, moving....again!

then of course there's this

And one last thing, cancer you can suck it.   Leave my family alone.

I'm putting my faith in this.

Wednesday, March 7, 2012

Sunday, February 12, 2012

Hockey Night

Friday night was Hockey night.... a fundraiser for the kids school.  Apparently anyone who's anyone goes to the game.   Well, unless their mom totally spaces the date, even though it's written on the calendar, and never buys the tickets.   Luckily, said mom is married to a pretty awesome dad who knows a guy, who knows a guy, who was able to score some pretty kick ass last minute seats.

Since Jud saved the day, I thought he deserved the honor of escorting these three crazies to the game:)

Highlights of the night according to Sam

-Hockey can be really bloody!
-Some of those guys are really huge!
-I saw a guy lose a tooth!
-Daddy let us get LOTS of treats!

Wednesday, February 8, 2012

What have we been up too???

I guess it's been quite awhile since I've blogged... I've gone through and deleted about 20 half written half thought out posts, if you subscribe sorry you got that totally random post on friendship last week, I meant to hit delete....simply no time or energy to finish them.   So what have we been doing?   Why am I too exhausted to even get a few thoughts together for the old blog once in awhile?  Well, I just downloaded all the photos I had on my phone, (I have no idea where my real camera is that's how long it's been since I've used it) so I guess this is what we've been up to...

Wednesday, January 25, 2012